Saturday, June 04, 2005

written off

One of the things I explored in my notebook today was the situation on the forum, site of recent troubles. I went through quite a few interations of what I should say over there. There was a lot of crossing out. No swearing, but some name-calling. I think it was cathartic just to get them out there, even if I am the only person who will ever see them, and even if I crossed them all out immediately! (Scene: Furious scribbling -- followed immediately by furious scratching out! Horrified expression" Oh, no, I'd never actually say that!") Fortunately, none of it will ever see the light of day.

When I got home, I decided to go with making one last journal entry:
the thing about journals...
Nobody makes you read them.

It speaks volumes when a person intentionally goes out of her way to be unpleasant to someone else.
Within 20 minutes there was a comment on that entry decrying me for "sh!tting all over the forum for the past 3 days." Or something charming like that.

I was in a mood, I couldn't resist -- I posted a comment myself: "This is too easy."

But then I regretted it. I know it's really annoying to be preached at. I also know it's wrong to hand someone a gun, knowing that she will shoot herself in the foot with it. And I know it's wrong to mock someone who doesn't get it. So today I knew I was pushing things, and expected to catch some flak. But I am still surprised by the vitriol that got poured out in my journal the past few days, when I posted very brief entries with links to howdy and creds. (Apparently, making two entries in my journal is abusive to the forum in some way. I still haven't figured that one out yet.)

I can't control what other people choose to read, and I can't make them behave like adults and just ignore something they don't like, instead of having fits about it. But since it was my journal, I could control how long this ruckus persisted. As a member of the community, I should be able to put whatever I want in my own journal, but if it's going to attract an unsavory crowd I'd rather not spoil the neighborhood, so to speak. So I deleted my entire journal, including the links to the recent posts here, and added one final entry:
deleted entries
I removed my recent journal entries which some members found inflammatory.

You can reach my blog by searching for "Oasis of Sanity."
Anyone who cares to, knows where to find me.


Brownie said...
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Sheik Yerbootie said...

Ah nuts - I always miss the good stuff.