Tuesday, April 08, 2008


Funny, I didn't think it was something that could sneak up on you.

For a good part of my life, I've been thrashing around, trying to figure out what it is that I'm supposed to be doing. I've had jobs, and I had a career, and I'm having a great stint as a parent just now. I've dabbled with writing with some success, but I've come to realize my heart's not in it. I like it, but it's not something I want to spend all my time doing.

So after years of dithering, it really does come down to the most obvious thing, teaching. I find it fulfilling in ways that software development never approached. I don't think this sense is comparable to youthful enthusiasm, the kind that evaporates when it makes contact with reality. I'm not that young, and I have an understanding of the day-to-day grind that can comprise a lot of teaching.

But it doesn't have to be that way. I come away from my religious ed class on Monday nights with a tired voice but mentally recharged; it's the same way when I get home from the monthly thyroid cancer support meetings. This is good work.

Is it strange to find a vocation in my mid-forties? Better late than never.


Anonymous said...

It's not strange at all - you've finally found your calling.

I'm happy for you. It's not like you haven't any experience with this - I mean you've been telling me where I've been wrong for years. :>)

Good luck - I know you will succeed.

Papercollector said...

you have always been a teacher...just different contexts .... silly...im sending you a book i love but do not use... if you dont or cant use it i can collect it later from you... havent blogged in months ... geesh where am i love you j