too busy.

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The job has started and I really am squished for time, mostly because I spent like an hour on the phone with an old girlfriend tonight... it was wonderful but I'm feeling a bit "Eeek!" now... so far the work is going well, though. That's cool.

The contractors continue to be wonderful. They are especially great around the kids, for which I am truly grateful.

Mom made her amazing meatloaf (LC, of course) for dinner tonight, and I immediately realized this would make a perfect column topic! They're just falling into my lap!

Still feeling tired, but I don't think it's because of too much running around, although maybe it is... I think it would definitely help if I could just stay curled up with a book somewhere for like three straight days, and sleep whenever I wanted, as long as I wanted... but that's not going to happen. At least not anytime soon.

The thing is, the level of running around is pretty constant. Before the holidays, it was worse. And I know before my surgery, I wasn't as fatigued as I am now. I actually felt pretty darn good before the surgery. Maybe I'm still feeling lingering effects of that, I suppose that shouldn't be surprising.

The other thing is that I have been doing more writing, which I love, but does take something out of me. And the last thing is that the kids have been absolutely brutal lately, taking turns pushing my buttons, pushing back on every limit, over-reacting to any minor negative turn, you name it. That is what is really draining me these days. I need a vacation from them! Or, at least from their extreme behavior.

I think it's just a bad confluence of developmental stages. Lord, I hope so, and I hope they grow out of them quickly.

Today I found out that the preschool plans I made for DS2 for next year won't work, since the class I had planned to enroll him in doesn't exist! So much for that. So I'm looking into other options, including the preschool at the Child Study Lab at ASU, which may work well if I take a course or two... I'm thinking this is another way that God is showing me what path I should take... I have ideas about how things will go, but I keep finding that my path is turning a different way...

This will take some research but will probably be decided by the end of February. I think this is amazing, because what, 6 weeks, 8 weeks ago? I had no clue where my life was going, and now I feel like I'm finally moving... if only I can keep up with myself!