Sunday, January 25, 2004

doing what must be done

After a couple of hours with the girls over coffee, I had some retail therapy at the Gap... 3 tops and a really nice pair of trousers for only $55. I really needed the tops because all of my old long-sleeve tops are just that, old and stretched out and stained and falling apart. I have sworn off wearing icky clothes unless I myself am feeling icky... I've found so often that wearing bad clothes puts me in a bad mood. So it was fun to pick up clothes that fit and look nice. I so deseperately needed the pants, too. I realized that I have 2 pairs of jeans and 2 pairs of yoga pants, and 1 pair of rayon flow-y patterned pants, and that was it. There are times when I don't want to wear jeans or yoga pants or those rayon ones, which are pretty but on the casual side. I have been watching too much "What Not To Wear" and I had straight-leg pants envy... lucky me, I found some that fit for only $30.

One thing that's weird is that post-pregnancy and starting this WOE, I actually can find pants that fit. I was never able to do that in the past, always had a "back shelf" that made it impossible to find pants that fit in the waist. One thing that helps is the lower rise style now, but also that my butt is more in proportion to the rest of me!

I had bought a bunch of pullover sweaters from Coldwater Creek back in the early fall. I got XS because they seem to run big there (or maybe it is just me), but they are just too big. I think it is that the weight of the rib is heavier than I expected. At any rate, I don't like the way they fit or feel on me (although they are a nice cotton). They are cut for someone who actually has a chest. Not me! I didn't pay much for them so it doesn't bother me too much, I should've just got one and then ordered more... oh well.

So that shopping gave me enough of a boost so that when I got home I actually put away the laundry, dusted, and cleaned the three bathrooms. There is other stuff to be done but that is the stuff that should've been done days ago, it's good to finally just do it! I don't know why I go into avoidance mode from time to time, I wish I did, because then maybe I could figure out how to get out of it.

I have to do some work-work today, itching to do that now, but I'm wondering if I can get away with it. DH is dozing on the couch while the kids are watching their new Hot Wheels movie (DS1 asked for it for his birthday, so I bought it as an early present). It's not as bad as I thought it would be, but I haven't actually watched it, just seen bits and pieces. The soundtrack is pretty decent rock'n'roll. That's one thing about these toy-videos, they usually have pretty good music. All the Barbie ones use classical/ballet, which is wonderful...

Coffee today was typical... one of the girls is a bit on the competitive side and things can get a bit rowdy, with everyone talking at the same time. I found myself sitting back and listening, although trying to encourage one friend who has a 2.5 year old who is driving her nuts... he's a lot like my DS1 was at that age, and it really takes a lot out of you, dealing with a kid like that. As I was leaving I realized that I never mentioned my new job to any of them, and barely talked about the contractor work on the new room, nor did I get a chance to mention that I talked this week to an old friend of ours who now lives in VA. It wasn't worth it to try and fight for the "conversation space". no big deal.

Still, it did make me miss that friend in VA. When I get together with these girls, it can be hard because for the most part it is very superficial. There are a couple I am closer to, but generally I am not open with my heart with them, we are just not that close. Certainly not in the group... you never know where what you say may end up with that crowd! They are not bad people by any stretch, and individually (for the most part) they are easy to take, but in the group... I don't know. It's fun to get out but mainly I look forward to the time away from the house on my own.


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