|Hokusai's Great Wave off Kanagawa|
Thank God I planned out my math classes because I've barely been keeping up with everything. OK, let me backtrack a bit. If there is nothing unusual going on, I can keep up if I am diligent, meaning I don't take any days or nights off from work.
Of course there is always something unusual going on, some other demand on my time. Let's see: First, I had not one but two district meetings to attend, one all-day, one only a few hours, but both required me to write up sub plans and that in itself takes hours.
Then, DS2 received a deficiency notice in humane letters and that set off a whole chain reaction of events, ending with me attending a meeting with his teacher and the dean of the high school yesterday. There's a novel's worth of material to explain everything, but I'll sum up by saying simply that I got upset (justifiably), there was miscommunication, and everything's good now. And, miraculously, DS2 is no longer deficient because he is doing his work. Part of that work has been another time-sink for me, coaching him on his Utopia essay.
In an effort to hold off crashing-and-burning, I'm in treatment for my neck and lower back. Every time I go, which is three times a week, I think, "I don't have time for this," but I have to make the time. I can't teach four classes in a row without my back screaming at me, and I've already learned stretches that magically fix that. The neck is work in progress; somehow I've lost nearly all the curvature I'm supposed to have - 45%. My curvature? 4%. Yikes. I didn't even know, of course, but that perhaps explains the numbness and tingling I was getting in my right arm: nerve entrapment. That is so much better since I've been going, it's a miracle -- it was preventing me from sleeping, and that's not something I can afford. So, progress. But also a huge time sink, and I should be spending even more time on in it because I'm not doing my stretches and exercises at home much at all, and I should be spending at least a half hour a day on them. Typing that, I think, why can't I find a half hour? If I do, I will feel better. It's because when I get home I have so much else to do, and when I finish that, I'm exhausted. I think I will bump up the exercises to the top of the to-do list so they get done first.
Grad class? Excellent... but I was up way too late doing the readings, and then up way-way-too-late writing my first real assignment, which wasn't even that long. My first in-person class at the Phoenix Zoo is a week from today, and my goal there is to have completed the first assignment comments by then. (They were due two days ago, but there is a grace period. I feel bad that I'm starting off this way, but it is what it is.)
Another time sink has been cooking for the low iodine diet, which is mostly the same as usual except when it's not. If we want gravy or something with a flavorful broth I have to put a lot more effort into it, because I can't just scoop out a little Better Than Bouillon to give it some depth. I obsess over food when I'm on this diet because I feel so constrained. Not deprived! I've been eating very well -- I just have to make every single thing, because its nigh impossible to ensure that commercially prepared food is made without iodized or sea salt. I also can't have any dairy or seafood or soy. It's remarkable how much of my diet has at least one of those things in it. Also, guacamole is a perfectly acceptable dinner, and Guinness makes a fine base for beef stew.
Now, the Great Wave: I have my Thyrogen trial this week, which means I'm driving up to Phoenix four days out of five. I'm using my prep hours and driving up mid-day, so with any luck the traffic will be light. But it will be stressful and exhausting, simply because I'm driving an extra hour (or more) each day, I'm being injected with synthetic TSH which always makes me feel weird, and I'm back into the cancer testing cycle. There's no way not to be stressed! But it's especially stressful this year because I'm taking 2 hours a day out of my available time. I don't want to give up those 8 hours! Hence, the feeling of impending doom.
I created a planning document for myself so I don't forget anything. Well, really, so I don't go crazy. I have been doing something similar each week so far just on random pieces of paper, and that gets messy and I find myself, like this week on Wednesday night at 11PM, realizing that I actually don't have the Course 3 Lesson 18 notes done, and having to type them up while struggling to keep my eyes open. I'd love to prepare everything for the week in advance, but the reality is I usually get Monday and Tuesday done, and then the rest of the week gets done the night before. Eventually, when I'm out of physical therapy and all this testing nonsense is done, I will be able to get there. I hope.
I would like the visual metaphor for my life to be a canoe ride down a wide, gently flowing river through beautiful woods and meadows full of wildflowers, but right now, I'm off Kanagawa watching that wave come toward me, rowing for survival.