I'm still angry about this whole situation, even though that doesn't make sense. I go through relatively long periods where I'm fine (because I'm not thinking about it), but then I'm not. I'm just sort of... empty, missing something that can't be replaced. I suppose I will get used to it. I'm kind of used to it already in some ways, but not in others...
My day today involved a nice brunch, all going out to a movie together, and a nice dinner in the evening. Brunch was later than I expected because I underestimated how long it would take to make both blueberry cake (for the family) and lemon muffins (gluten- and sugar-free for me), but in the end it was all quite delicious.
The movie was Captain America:Civil War, which involved less silliness and stupidity than I expected, and thus was thoroughly enjoyable. I think the thing I liked best was the care the writers took to show that the characters are actual people, with real feelings. It was well done, and everyone enjoyed it.
Dinner was surf & turf, I prepped and DH grilled. We ate outside, and afterwards the two older children and I stayed outside for quite a while just talking and being together, and that made today completely perfect.
There were other things, of course: I talked to both my sisters, and texts went back and forth among all my siblings. Somehow all the laundry got done. I thought about grading some tests but that didn't happen... no big deal, I'll have time to do it this week since I have my prep hour back. (All of the younger grades have now visited junior high science.) I was fairly successful most of the day in not thinking about whatever is going on with (what I think is) my ovarian cyst -- will just have to wait until Tuesday to find out. I'm glad I was able to not-think about that for a good part of the day.
Perhaps some won't believe me when I say I don't need anything, but I know there will come a time when my children will not be able to spend (most of) a day with me, and so I'm appreciating it while I can. Time is the most precious thing we have, and being with my family is the best thing in the entire world.